Thursday, 25 February 2010

New Beginings..........





(Began writing this in early January 2010 and have added to it until I was finally happy to publish the post)

Well thankfully 2009 is now well and truly over and  2010 has begun in earnest......... Wishing you all a Very Happy New Year!!


Christmas this year was very difficult for us as the loss of Mum was quite evident as Christmas day dawned. I had been feeling stronger about her loss as the days passed by but something just hit me as I walked the dogs on Christmas morning and as much I tried to fight the tears back it was not to be and spent a good hour trekking across the fields sobbing my heart out... 
I also managed to fall over and break my faithful trusty pop in my pocket camera.. so that just made matters worse!
Thankfully my OH rallied around and helped me with the Christmas meal and jollied me along.... plied with me an intoxicating spirit or two which helped dull the pain!!! 
I have never been so unenthusiastic about a meal and yet it turned out really well!
Later on in the evening we were expecting old friends and neighbours around for tea and so I could go and have a sleep... needed to sleep off the crying and inebriation effects!! OH prepared a lovely buffet which was a huge success...and the evening was enjoyed by all... including me!



Boxing day was a much better day for us all and I was much happier and thankfully I have coped well  since Christmas.. although things hit me emotionally when I least expect it and when it does its quite overwhelming but that is now down to time and the healing that it brings and I just have to allow nature to take its course........
I did have one highlight over Christmas on Boxing day and that was to talk over the telephone for the first time with GTM.... http://greentwinsmummyasimplelife.blogspot.com/. (GMT has since closed this blog and moved to another private blog with invited members only) It was so nice to talk with her as she is such a lovely, lovely lady! I also had a little chat with her darling smalls and it was delightful... the best Christmas present ever!!


I do hope the year ahead will be a lot happier... I do have some plans on the horizon but to be honest nothing is at all clear and I find myself rather overwhelmed with things I would like to do and achieve but all in a jumbled mess... so guess the first thing on my list of achievements this year is to catch up with loads of correspondence and get myself organised. 
I find I am far too happy to sit at my computer and what should only be a little while here and there turns into an hour or two.... 
That is when I can actually see what I am doing on the computer screen!
Bootsie does like this spot and enjoys many a happy nap on my desk!! Often find I am struggling to type around either a tail or a tapping paw..... 
Bold and Basil enjoying a nap together.....

Bootsie in feline dream land... 
Two's company............ 
Basil is in (dare I say it without tempting fate!!) much better health these days and all thanks to our lovely vet who has now sadly left for pastures new and will be much missed as he was a wonderful vet.... will be hard to get used to someone else......
Basil was so ill with stomach/gut problems and still has to have regular medication for the stomach problems but with the medication and a specialised food he has gone from strength to strength and is in tip top health its so nice to see him full of endless energy..... 
He of course still needs to have both hips replaced but due to the stomach problems now under control and his weight managed correctly coupled with the pain killers and joint supplement the hips problems are under control... when things in time take a turn for the worst then hip replacement will become a requirement.... If you saw him run and get about you would have no idea that their was a problem with his hips in fact its impossible to wear Basil out!!
This is the food that has made a MAJOR difference to Basils health. It is quite pricey but I am able to shop around on-line and find it much reduced than purchasing from the vets and as I buy it in a bulk size its nice to have it delivered to my door.


The weather and the big freeze is now the topic of the day and a wonderful opportunity to take some great photographs.......
My friend and neighbour who is also the owner of Syd. We were walking the dogs together that morning and were taking photographs of the most beautiful frosty day!
And then the snow came along....................
Even big girls have to play.... here is 'Snowdonna' and Snowtravolta'!!!

Well things have moved on since the 'snow' and we are slowly but surely heading towards Spring which is much looked forward to for many reasons.
At the moment I am not in the best of health and to cut a long story short I have had some blood tests done as I have been quite low recently and was also taken ill across the fields the other week..... the blood tests are thankfully okay but they have revealed that my immune system is low at the present time. My doctor thinks it is to with my poor sleeping routine of late which in itself is very harmful and I need to get more sleep..... but also the low immune system as allowed me to succumb to a really bad chest and sinus infection. It has completely floored me and I am on my second week of antibiotics.

Sadly I am having to deal with more sadness.... A couple of weeks ago I attended the funeral of my friends husband who has been very ill for the past nine years and suffered from many aliment's including Parkinson's disease and Alzheimer's and finally he lost his life to pneumonia. He was a very dear man with a wonderful sense of humour, positively wicked at times and he will be very much missed!!
This was a photograph I took of my friends husband Jim enjoying a great time during a pre Christmas tea party. Rest in Peace Jim you were very much loved!!


And then early this week I received the very sad news that my Mums Eldest sister, my favourite Auntie had just passed away. Auntie Jean was the grand age of 86 and had enjoyed a very happy and adventurous life and as my cousin (Auntie Jeans son) said to me she had, had a good innings!! But it was a huge blow to me as I adored my Auntie and as a child I had spent many happy hours in her company and I have many special memories of my gorgeous Auntie.....
I wasn't able to attend the funeral for various reasons and this upset me greatly so my cousin told me to get in touch with the undertakers once I had sorted out my floral tribute and I was to have my flowers put on my Aunties coffin alongside his flowers and that was such a sweet gesture that means so much to me.
RIP Auntie Jean, never forgotten and loved forever! xxx
Going through my Mums photographs the other day I found this photograph of Auntie Jean attending her garden. I was staying with her for a few days at the time...44 years ago!!

I also discovered another photograph that really quite upset me as all my family on that photograph have now sadly passed away
In this photograph from left to right:-
My Mum, my Dad, Uncle John (my Mums brother) Auntie Jean (my Mums sister) Uncle Frank (Mums brother) Uncle Reg (Auntie Jeans husband) Auntie Mary (Mums sister) Uncle Brian (Mums brother). The photograph was taken at my Uncle Dicks funeral yet another brother of Mums. Their is only one sister now left surviving and she was the youngest of the family.

Also I found a newspaper cutting of Railway Cottage the childhood home of my Dad and after my Dad left home along with other brothers and his only sister, due to marriage etc. Uncle Frank Dad's youngest brother who never married remained in the cottage until he passed away in 1995 and it was then put up for auction by my Dads late nephew who was the executor of my Uncles Will. It broke my Dads heart to see his childhood home put up for sale and we never knew what happened to the money it sold for or the contents of the house. All that was sent back to us were my childhood school photographs that my Uncle kept on his sideboard. It was heartbreaking as many of the contents were childhood memories for my Dad, old books, ornaments, family photographs.etc My Uncle was an avid gardener and had three greenhouse one of which contained some spectacular cactus plants and I dread to think what happened to them. Dad did not like conflict so let the whole unsavoury situation pass by but it left him very troubled and hurt by family members who he had been very fond of......
I visited the cottage many times as a child and adored it and many times helped to get water from the garden pump (on the right of the picture) until my Uncle finally decided he would be connected to the water mains...
The cottage was situated right by the side of the railway and things been so different in those days in so much as the train drivers got to know my Uncle by sight who was always out in his garden and they would wave, or toot at my Uncle as they passed by and even some of the passengers would give my Uncle a wave.. lovely happy days and the sun always seemed to be shinning!!
The inside of the  cottage was decorated in newspaper and then white washed. As a child I slept in the upstairs bedrooms as my Mum and Dad stayed for a short while to look after my Granddad when my Granny was away ill. I remember the toilet was always outside right up until it was sold and it had the old Radio Times/newspapers cut up for toilet paper, it was one of those toilets that had to be emptied on a regular basis. There was the old laundry outside and the copper inside. It was a long huge garden and in the dell as it was called a dip in the far end of the garden was where my Uncle kept his hens and I was always allowed to go and collect the eggs. It was such an exciting place for a child to be and I have had many happy hours at Railway cottage. I have recently had a look at the cottage on a day when my OH and I happened to be in that area and although a lot of the original parts of the cottage remain as it was a listed property the new owners have built onto it and ripped the garden out and landscaped it to their own liking which is what you would expect but I do regret going back as I disliked how it had been messed around with, guess its right what they say,  you should never go back...........

Feeling somewhat apprehensive at the moment as my husband is due to see his heart consultant today. OH has had a problem with his heart for sometime now and so far had four cardioversions, the first one lasted for five years the other three have lasted no longer than one day and so he has reached his cardioversion limit and his consultant is looking to perform a small operation on my husbands heart that could hopefully solve his problem?? All will hopefully be revealed this morning?

14 comments:

mrsnesbitt said...

What a jorney! Death seems to sometimes come from nowhere and swamp us with loss, I guess it is down to the age of loved ones.
((((HUGS))))

MoominMamma said...

As mrsnesbitt says, what a journey - and in just a few short months too.
I too find looking through photographs quite hard, my Dad has all of my Granny's photo's still and I look through them every so often. The older shots always 'get' me as I never knew a lot of these 'old Aunties' (as my Dad calls them) and I always wonder what they were like. (Old photographs in general are amazing though, I found some the other day of the village main road - I'm going to try and contact the website owner and see if I will be allowed to post them to my blog to show!)
I DO love your snow people! They really made me giggle! It occured to me the other day that Monster and I should have attempted a Moomin when we made our snowman!
I hope that everything goes OK with OH at the Doctors, and that you are feeling better and getting more sleep.
With love,
Kath xxxxx

MelMel said...

Hello, I'm so sad that you have lost so many ppl that you loved.
You have had such a hard time lately....I'm thinking of you, I am popping the little book mark in the post tomorrow, I was in a rush today and did not make the Post office in time.
I'm glad that you are enjoying snippets of joy, its really tricky to try and enjoy life, when some days you feel really sad......

((hug)))
Melxxxx

Bruce said...

Sorry, I've only just had a chance to read your latest post, what a start to the year you've had! I so hope the rest of the year is full of blessings for you, and may all your plans come to fruition. Anyway, Big hugs for my favourite blogger(())

Slice of life said...

hey jane great to hear from you. hope all is well. lovely pictures of your dog

thesnailgarden said...

{{{Jane}}} So sorry that you have had such sadness in your life recently. Hope your husband's op goes well and that 2010 brings happier times. Thank you for all your lovely comments on my blog, love Pj x

liZZie said...

Wonderful photographs Jane and I enjoyed the tour of your extended family. May the cheery colours of spring, clearer skies, and brighter sunlight cheer and warm your heart

ICQB said...

Your Aunt had a wonderful garden! And Basil and his friend looked so happy in the snow.

So sorry to hear of the loss of your Aunt, and your friend's husband. Complications from Parkinson's is what took my Dad a few years ago.

I hope your immune system gets a chance to reboot. Maybe Basil will share some of his new-found strength :-)

And Strider is the same way, he has bad hips, but when he's running around you wouldn't know it. It's only later, when he's been laying about for a while, that he becomes limpy.

Thinking of you, and your OH - hoping that his cardio check involved good news. Take care of yourself and get strong again!

Give Basil lots of pats and my love, and Strider says, Woof!

Vetnurse said...

I was sorry to see that you also have everything piled up, l know the run down feeling. Would say get more sleep and eat better but am afraid it is pot calling kettle black.
I am afraid l let things slide and have not been around much since December.
At least Basil is looking good on his mix of drugs and food.

Shirley Landis VanScoyk said...

First I am sorry for the grief, and I applaud the way you chronicled it. We love and we lose and that is the journey. Take care.

gz said...

Greetings.
Lost my partner 3 months ago.
He didn't age, just wore out.

Compostwoman said...

Hello Jane - are you still blogging?

Much love Cw xx

Lyn said...

Hello!
Thank you for following my blog I am not sure if you are still blogging here but thought I would leave a comment just in case. I hope 2010 and indeed 2011 have been kinder to you and your husband and I hope to pop over again.
Love
Lyn
(everyday life)
xxx

tonghop ketoan said...

So beatiful